Week 5

Well, I'm at a bit of a weird spot in the recovery process. (I promise I'll try not to bore you, my rapt audience, with too much about my "illness"; however, it's kind of where I'm living right now.) I'm at that strange place where I think I should be doing better than I am. Last week I was able to spend hours at IHC hugging necks and giving updates, but the prospect of just doing normal work this week overwhelms me. I think adrenaline is a beautiful thing, and I'm sure that had much to do with my stamina. I'm dying to get back to a regular schedule, but the thought of that terrifies me right now. The fact that I ran out of pain meds isn't helping my outlook at the moment. Don't worry, I have a call in to get more. :) Anyway, I need help finding the balance between being a pathetic "sickly" individual who should just buck up and get to work and a workaholic who will drive myself into a physical setback by not paying attention to my body. So, if you could spare a prayer, send it this way. I really am doing well. I have nothing to complain about. I just need help with balance right now. I find myself to be quite human with a great need to avail myself of the rest of the Body. Thanks for being part of it! Your presence is a comfort.